For nearly thirty years, James has kept his inner demons trapped in his own mind. One day, his mental health got the better of him and there was nothing he could do to hold the memories in anymore.

Being scared of the social stigma attached and what others would think of him if they knew his past, he struggled to express his feelings to anyone. Instead, James decided to write it all down and share his experiences with the world.

Because of the nightmares and flashbacks James has suffered from due to his post-traumatic stress disorder, he talks through each day in order to help him cope.

In this book, James lays all his struggles on the table: flashbacks, memories, self-harm, abuse both witnessed and received, alcohol addiction, loss, pain, suffering--all of his struggles are just a glimpse into the life of someone with severe mental health conditions. This story shows his progression through his illness. Follow his story so you may learn and understand what the highs and lows are like in the mind of someone who wants nothing more than to regain control of his life.

James puts his pen to paper and delves down deep, telling about his feelings of neglect, torture, lies, abandonment, and what it means to survive when he is left to fend for himself.