At the age of twenty-two, pregnant with my second child, I fell into a deep, dark hole of depression. I had fears that overcame my whole being, to the point I thought my children would be better off if I were dead. I wanted to die. Severe mania came my way at the age of twenty-six years old. I had psychotic behavior, delusions, symptoms of schizophrenia, and paranoia schizophrenia. I was diagnosed with bi-polar while receiving treatment in a rehabilitation/behavior hospital. I lived ten years with lows of depression, and highs of mania. I reached the extreme high of yet another manic episode in my thirties. I was completely out of reality, and was not able to function day to day on my own once again. In My Head is a memoir of my life living with bi-polar, with explicit details of my horrific thoughts, out of the ordinary behavior, and my treatment I have received. Without the love and support from my family, and the treatment I have received from my psychiatrist, I do not know if I would be dead or alive today. I now live a fulfilling life without allowing my mental illness to destroy me.