Dr. Athena Rayder had it all - A fantastic career as a physician, a beautiful wife, a narcissistic personality disorder, and beautiful mansion on the cliffs of Malibu. As a high functioning alcoholic with a perilously strong libido, she manages to destroy it all by betraying her wife and herself a thousand times over. After a failed suicide attempt and a 51-50 psychiatric hold, she is committed to an inpatient rehab and psychiatric treatment facility. In the company of schizophrenics, borderlines, obsessive compulsives, addicts of all kinds, and anorexics she finds her own hard truths. Having finished her treatment she is spawned back into her former life where she grapples with atonement and discovery; temptation and resolve. When she finally loses the last thing she loves, her profession, her life takes an unexpected turn.It's not often a 45 year old woman gets a chance to be reborn.Stripped of her former armor and bravado, Athena is forced to reckon with her past and, more frightening, her future. Surrounding herself with strong, tempest tested women she finds a new life and light, never forgetting who she was and who she wants to be. When the story begins, Athena is not a likable character - even to herself. But if the reader takes a chance, they will find she becomes proof positive that people can change if they want it bad enough.The story exposes the hidden world of high functioning alcoholics and addicts. Of the stressors of being a woman in a position of power. Of marriage and bed death. Of sexually confident women.Most importantly, the lies we tell ourselves when the truth doesn't fit the mold we make it.