Arrogant twin, Theodorus Bratter, takes center stage in this last in The New Utrecht Avenue trilogy, preceded by Get Ready to Run and Between Dog & Wolf.

Self-adulation and a self-confirmed dominating superiority slowly unravel as thought, enchanted and mystified by love, turns on itself. Theodorus, namesake of the BC Theodorus the Atheist, searches in dream and travel for a love that perhaps was never real, one he was enchanted by when young, retrievable or, so deeply painful, dead and now forever lost.

"I began to look for her in my dreams and wondered if I would know her when I found her. I wondered if being with her, being together with her would be eternal or whether what was found would somehow be lost.

I was looking for her before I ever knew her and when she was gone, there was no time left in me at all.

That was a dream-escape. I didn't know it could become true. But it did become real."